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IS THERE EVER JUST ENOUGH?

by Carmel June 10, 2016

A couple weeks ago Laurel stopped taking a pacifier at bedtime. What we once thought we’d have to pry away from her in toddlerhood, she was now refusing with stubborn resolve. After a few nights of struggling to do our routine of pacifier, white noise, swaddling and rocking at bed time, I gave up and […]

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THE BUCHMAN IS HERE

by Carmel June 8, 2016

I had just put Laurel down for her long nap. I prayed that she would stay asleep long enough for me to finish my Photoshop project. Lately, she’s been skimping on her morning naps. I turned to Shawn as I furiously worked on the cover to his first book and said, “do you think that […]

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LIFE IN THE NICU

by Carmel May 19, 2016

Some experiences require to be written in the moment in order to fully capture the reality. And then some require to be processed, to be examined, in order to be fully digested. I couldn’t recount our experiences in the NICU until now. Those 25 days felt endless – if I thought too much about them, […]

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EVOLUTION OF A DREAM

by Carmel April 11, 2016

A couple of years ago, I had a revelation. I knew what I wanted with my life for the first time ever – to be a mom and to own my own business. This is a pattern for me – I’ll feel completely lost and then suddenly one day THE answer reveals itself to me. […]

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DUE DATE

by Carmel February 2, 2016

Today would have been Laurel’s due date. The last couple of months have gone by much quicker than they would have if I was still pregnant – particularly the last month she’s been home. I’m still working on writing our experiences in the NICU. It’s been a lot more to process than I anticipated. Laurel’s […]

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LAUREL’S BIRTH STORY

by Carmel January 12, 2016

When last I left you, I was in the hospital for some preterm labor symptoms, sent home on bed rest. I think the alternate title to this story could be, “What the hell happened??” because that’s the response I got from most people who found out I had our baby already. Even to my closest […]

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36 HOURS OF UNCERTAINTY

by Carmel December 4, 2015

We had a scare a couple nights ago with baby. I had some light bleeding/spotting and cramps Wednesday night. Luckily it happened right before we were already scheduled to go to our Centering class (we do this instead of individual appointments with an OB or midwife). I talked to my midwife about it and she […]

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FIVE YEARS OF ADVENTURES

by Carmel October 16, 2015

I never thought I would be this mushy. I once had a coworker compare me to Daria – you know, the cynical cartoon teenager from that MTV show? Apparently all it took was finding the right person to bring out my inner marshmallow. See what I mean? Big, old fluffy marshmallow… Being with Shawn has […]

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20 WEEKS DOWN, 20 WEEKS TO GO

by Carmel September 17, 2015

An update on my favorite little parasite Ladies and gentlemen, we are halfway there. Incredible to think that this journey has already hit the halfway mark. I thought I would do a lot more writing about my pregnancy on this blog, but it hasn’t happened as much as I’d like. It’s an important journey to […]

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WHEN THINGS DON’T GO AS PLANNED

by Carmel September 3, 2015

As I started writing this, I was awaiting a call from my aunt to see what the latest news on the fires in Northern Idaho are like. All summer I’ve been holding on to this vacation to Priest Lake in my brain as a reward for making it through a rough first trimester of pregnancy, […]

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